Today I woke up at 11am. I proceeded to go outside and where a t-shirt. It was 73 degrees. It looked like it might rain. I threw a sweater in my bag along with headphones, some tortilla's and a sleeping bag. Everything you could possibly need for a good old fashioned protest. Then I headed downtown to The Rescue which is an awareness campaign for ending children being used as soldiers in Uganda. It was put on by Invisible Children which I am sure many, if not all, of you have heard of. The goal was simply to get media attention and to get celebrities, politicians, and others of high social status to come and "Rescue" us. It was cool. It looked like there about 1000 or so people there. It was 3:30pm. and it was 73 degrees and cloudy.
I got on the train. Headed downtown. Got off the train (believe it or not) and ended up meeting some friends who were already there. Within 15 minutes we were marching around the city holding on two a rope like we were preschoolers in single file. People were stopping us to ask what it was for and one of us (mainly my friend Kirsten) would kindly explain what all the hub-ub was about.
About 15 minutes into our walk it started to rain a little bit. But everyone agreed how much they missed being outside, comfortable and wearing t-shirts when it rained. Even though it was a really heavy thing that we were marching for... we were having fun. We arrived after marching about 1 mile or so at Buckingham Fountain. There was a pause in line movement. I had been doing a lot of thinking about why I was even there most of the day and so I decided to bring up a couple of things that were on my mind with my friends. I conveyed how disconnected I felt with the whole thing. How could I even begin to understand children fighting a war? That does not make any sense to me. That is beyond cruelty that I know of. I have heard of many cruel things. But the closest thing that I personally know of is probably just neighborhood punks stealing my bike when I was 12.
We didn't really talk about it too long but I felt like there were other people there who could sympathize with me. Not that I needed any sympathy. I don't.
Then, it started to really rain. And when I say rain... I mean I have lived on the earth for 21 years and have maybe felt rain and wind this strong 1 other time. And then it got colder. There was a moment where we all looked at each other and commented as to how it felt like it got 15-20 degrees colder instantly. It got down to 42 degrees without windchill in the matter of a half hour and then it rained even harder. Then it stopped. and then... a nameless friend (KIRSTEN!!!!!!) found a tarp in her bag. She swore she didn't know though so its okay. But I'm still pissed.
Needless to say, I was beyond miserable. My hands were numb. Every inch of my body was soaking wet. My shoes were puddles. And we were standing in an open field by a giant lake on the brink of a tornado.
After a couple hours I couldn't take it. I left with the intention of coming back after eating something because I also had only eaten a couple tortilla's for my entire days diet. After leaving my group I just up and left the whole thing. I went to Chipotle and then went straight home. Got in the hottest shower I have ever taken, listened to Bon Iver and relaxed.
And some of you may see where I am going with this.
Lets go back to my thoughts earlier. Truly connecting with this cause was almost impossible for me. I am so used to immediately ready showers, warmth, food and not to mention kindness from all of my christian friends that children fighting a war on the other side of the world must not be true.
But it is....
and I am not sure what to do with that. But today at least made me think.... and that's good and all. But these are heavy thoughts. Children, War. Same Sentence. And where am I? I'm taking hot showers and relaxing after being miserable for a mere 2 hours. I'm concerned with my new song sounding too much like Bon Iver because I have been listening to him so much.
But honestly, the worst part is that I am probably not going to change. I like being comfortable. So I'll ignore the homeless, the broken-hearted, the depressed, the child soldiers etc. until I grow up and become a man. There is so much more that should go into this but I feel a little overwhelmed by it right now. Peace. (thats ironic)